Missing His Family............Too

So the other day I was reading 29 to Life's blog about breaking up with his family too.  It got me to thinking about how much I miss my ex-fiance's family.  We were together for 6 years and I developed a bond with his family.  Especially his nieces and step mother.  I loved his two nieces like they were my very own.  Actually before my niece Michelle was born, they were there.  It's funny as graduation time rolls around I think about his college graduation cookout.  His oldest niece and I dance the night away.  We had little battles throughout the evening; it was so much fun.  A few weeks ago I found a picture of the two of us dancing that night and it made me smile and cry at the same time.


His youngest niece is the same age as my nephew so every time I, or in most cases we, would get one we would pick up the other.  They were really two peas in a pod.  Hell, they are three days apart, lol.  It was so funny to watch/listen to the two of them plot to come over out house for school breaks or just because.  Every year we would take them to dinner and Kings Dominion's HalloScream.  *Sigh*  When him and I broke up my nephew was CRUSHED!  His response was "that's still my uncle and I'm still hanging with T."  It hurt my feelings, but I knew how my nephew cherished the relationship he had with them.


His step family was REALLY like my family.  I loved them from the bottom of my heart.  We used to have summer cookouts and go on fall vacations together.  Not only did they accept me, but they also accepted my mother.  They would hang out together and I didn't have to be around.  My family was invited to every event.  God, I miss them so much.  I will be honest, I erased everyone's number associated to him except his stepmother.  I text her from time to time and I hope one day I can spend time with her again. A few months ago she sent me a text telling me I would always be her daughter. 


Breaking up with him was hard, but breaking up with his family has been harder.  I deactivated my FB account so I wouldn't have to see the various family updates.  It hurts too much.  They were my family for 6 years with the thought they would be there for a lifetime....things don't go as planned because I didn't plan to miss them this much.


I love you guys *sigh*

Making the Band......Christian Edition

Almost two years ago I joined a Christian dance company, Get Lifted Ensemble, started by a young woman I went to undergrad with at High Point University. Every Friday I come together with six strong women of God to prepare to minister through dance.  On a typical day we study the Bible, stretch and dance. 

I'll be honest, when I first joined the group I was a baby in my Christian walk.  Although I had been saved for many years, I was still a baby.  My prayer life was non-existent, I didn't attend church service on a regular basis and I was not a part of any ministry.  I felt a little intimidated being around such strong women of faith.  I mean some of them and quote scripture left and right.  Others could speak in tongue and all of them were gifted with the power of prayer and dance. 

Being around my sisters has helped me grow as a Christian and as a women.  We encourage each other in times of need.  They hold me accountable for my actions and I know I can call on ANY of them if I need prayer in the middle of the night.  Heck, they even make house calls!!!!  I've grown so much in my Christian walk and I thank God for allowing me to be a part of this ministry.  My prayer life is so much stronger and I even joined a new church.  S/O to the First Baptist Church of Glenarden :-)  I've finally found a ministry and a group of women that accept me for who I am.

A few weeks ago our Creative Director decided she wanted us to shoot a video to Mary Mary's "Sitting with Me" off of their Something Big  album.  We did this on a gloomy Saturday morning.  We had no idea what to expect, but check this out!

GLE: Sitting With Me

How AWESOME was that?!?!?!?  Yea, God is Good!!!! 

I'm so thankful for Making the Band :-)

Nails, Nails, and More Nails..........Well Not Really

So over the past few months I have become a "Nail Polish Addict."  In the month of March alone I purchased over 20 new bottles of polish.  Every Sunday I give myself, Mom and my two little sisters, my mentees, a colorful manicure.  I've done animal prints, stripes, triangles, Easter themes and last night I create a TinkerBelle manicure.

Asha, the youngest sister is a TinkerBelle fan.  She has the graphic t-shirts, bead spread, pajamas, etc.  Since her Easter theme mani, which consisted of a chicken hatching out of an egg and colorful cracked "eggs" did not last the entire week we decided to try a TinkerBelle mani.  Now, for the life of me I can't draw very well on paper, but I can do it on nails, clothes, etc.  I attempted to sketch out half of TinkerBelle's face and another fairy from the movie.  After drawing it on paper I was convinced this mani was headed for disaster.  But I was wrong!!!  Here is the final result!!!! 

TinkerBelle :-)

Iridessa :-)

I LOVE THIS MANI!!! MY BEST YET :-)