Missing His Family............Too

So the other day I was reading 29 to Life's blog about breaking up with his family too.  It got me to thinking about how much I miss my ex-fiance's family.  We were together for 6 years and I developed a bond with his family.  Especially his nieces and step mother.  I loved his two nieces like they were my very own.  Actually before my niece Michelle was born, they were there.  It's funny as graduation time rolls around I think about his college graduation cookout.  His oldest niece and I dance the night away.  We had little battles throughout the evening; it was so much fun.  A few weeks ago I found a picture of the two of us dancing that night and it made me smile and cry at the same time.


His youngest niece is the same age as my nephew so every time I, or in most cases we, would get one we would pick up the other.  They were really two peas in a pod.  Hell, they are three days apart, lol.  It was so funny to watch/listen to the two of them plot to come over out house for school breaks or just because.  Every year we would take them to dinner and Kings Dominion's HalloScream.  *Sigh*  When him and I broke up my nephew was CRUSHED!  His response was "that's still my uncle and I'm still hanging with T."  It hurt my feelings, but I knew how my nephew cherished the relationship he had with them.


His step family was REALLY like my family.  I loved them from the bottom of my heart.  We used to have summer cookouts and go on fall vacations together.  Not only did they accept me, but they also accepted my mother.  They would hang out together and I didn't have to be around.  My family was invited to every event.  God, I miss them so much.  I will be honest, I erased everyone's number associated to him except his stepmother.  I text her from time to time and I hope one day I can spend time with her again. A few months ago she sent me a text telling me I would always be her daughter. 


Breaking up with him was hard, but breaking up with his family has been harder.  I deactivated my FB account so I wouldn't have to see the various family updates.  It hurts too much.  They were my family for 6 years with the thought they would be there for a lifetime....things don't go as planned because I didn't plan to miss them this much.


I love you guys *sigh*