Sometimes You Have to Lose to Win Again......

A few weeks ago Fantasia released the video to her song entitled "Lose to Win".  As most of my generation knows, 'Tasia has been through a lot.  

She dropped out of HS, endured scrutiny for not knowing how to read, became a teenage mother, was sued by her father, went bankrupt, had an affair w/ a married man, attempted suicide and bore a child w/ a married man.  

The lyrics to this song REALLY sit with me; especially the course.

Have you ever needed someone so bad?

But he ain’t willing to make it last

Sometimes you gotta lose to win again.

If it makes you cry, cry, cry

And all you do is fight

Can’t get no sleep at night?

Sometimes you gotta lose to win again.

I've been there......

It's been well documented on this blog that I have been in the middle of a bad break up with someone whom I loved deeply.  

I needed him, he wasn't there.  

He needed me and I was no where to be found.  

I cried.

He mentally and emotionally move further away from me.  

We fought for almost 2 years as we went round for round on how we were going to settle our joint affairs.  

I've experienced months of sleepless nights.  

Well today, finally, we both received some closure.  

He was there and so was I.  

There were no tears.  

No verbal punches thrown. 

I plan to sleep well tonight.

We met to sign paperwork to legally dissolve our relationship.

After signing the Quit Claim Deed and the Settlement Agreement I felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.  I turned over my legal right to the house we previously shared and in some part my GREAT credit score.  

It's not over yet, but the hardest part is complete. 

When we broke up I lost A LOT....I lost my will to live....I lost my self-esteem and confidence.....I lost my love for others....I lost my love for God.

But today.....TODAY, I got ME back.  I won! 

Sometimes you have to lose to win again.